Forgot I had a blog.  Apparently after having our Boston I then never felt the need to blog again. So here I am over 3 years later remembering I once had a blog and expecting baby #5 in 13 weeks.   Since my last post, both Chris and I have finished grad school and our kids are much bigger.  Payton is in High School while Ashton and Straton attend the same elementary school.  Boston is getting ready to start preschool this next year and become a big brother to a little sister.

We have lost a few family members including my step-grandfather Wally Gustman, my wonderful father-in-law Craig Wintle, my grandfather Buzz Winn and my wonderful great Aunt Mary all within the last 2 years.  We have gained a few family members as well.  My brother got married to Brooklyn Ashy and we have welcomed a couple nieces and nephews.  We look forward to what the next few years bring us.

It is funny that today I remembered I had a blog.  I have been doing some soul searching and realized I am not living as the real me.  What I mean by this is I do not let people see or know the real me.  There are things I keep secret and to myself that ultimately push people away preventing me from making more lasting relationships.  So while it is scary I feel I should share whom I really am and what I have really been through and overcome to make me who I am today.  Something’s are scary to admit and say out loud, or write down and put out there, but I feel they need to be shared as they could help someone.

So over the next few months I am going to go back and share one story at a time how I have become me. I am not a great writer so if you are willing to bear with me, you might just learn a few things you never knew.  Maybe even something that might help you or help someone you know.  This world is scary, but at the same time so beautiful and wonderful due to the people who are apart of it.